I'm NEVER confused!! NEVERRR!!!! And that's not even the half of it! It's what I'm confused about that gets to me!!
So I met up with this guy during spring break (if you want me to post the story, ask away!) and everything was great! He was the perfect guy for me! Cute, tall, funny and he had a New Yorkerish accent (which is good for me because I'm a sucker for accents). But he lives in Ohio and I live in Maryland...so thats bad. But not bad at the same time because well....I LOVE HIM!! And he loves me! And we'll see each other again soon, so I don't care about the disdance.
But then something happened.
Something bad.
I've known my friend Kevin for years, and we've always been buddys. But I've also known he's had a little itty bitty crush on me forever. Its not that big of a crush, but its there. And I didn't mind. He could have a crush on me if he wanted to, its just he had to understand that I just didn't feel the same way about him. And he does understand but he still has the little itty bitty crush on me. So anyways, after church lets out (thats the only time I ever reallly see him) he gives me a hug goodbye like he always does. But this time it was different. He usually gives me a hug like a friend would. You know, from the side or something. But no, he gave me a real hug. A nice hug. He wrapped his arms around my waist and without even knowing I wrapped mine around his neck. And we hugged. It wasn't a long hug or anything. But...I felt something...which is bad.
I love Shawn (my bf) NOT Kevin!! But...but...but I felt something there!! And I know Kevin did too!! Its just...I love Shawn!! I don't love Kevin!! What is it? Why do I feel so different all of a sudden?! Could it be that I'm falling out of love with Shawn? NOOO!! THATS NOT IT!!! I...I'm just so confused.
~RhythmAddic
"Which one? Well, that's something you should really be asking yourself...not me..." ~Malcolm Writer
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uhh oh, i think ur falling for kevin. i mean...if u dont want to, then start now. because if u keep seeing him, u might just fall even harder =/
I was afraid of that!!! hmm...maybe I should stop seeing Kevin for a while, just to get my head into place.
yeppp, that would be a really goood idea, cuz this is so weird, but me and u have the same issue, cuz my really good friend liked me, and i fell for him at church too. soo..be carefullll !!!!
omg that IS weird!! and yes, I'll be careful!!
wow umm you know i like the story cuz ive been in a situation just like this.... its tough!
you have??....how did it turn out?
really good actually, i asked each one to hang out with me and i learned a lot about them and in the end i had to choose with one i liked better.
hmm....that would work if my bf didn't live in Ohio.....dangit!!!
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yeah....ooo..
well ummm you could hang out on the phone or webcam, or something.
lol! we actually do both, talk on the phone and do the whole webcam thing. its really cool and its almost like I'm in the same room with him!! so yeah! that could work!!
well along with decembersmoon aka amanda its hapend to me and it sucks cuz its hppening again i just told my self well im daitng (insert bf name here) and not (insert crush name here) and when i brake up with (insert bf name here) than i can go out with (insert crushes name here)! if thats helps any it worked 4 me 4 a little while but dont be afrade to move on quikly if it will help go on mine and read my first blog its all about that
ok! I'll check it out!!
oh geez, sounds tough. but maybe what you felt with kevin isnt what you think it is. maybe, you only think you felt that.
like, because shawn lives so far away, and even though your in love with him, you miss having someone to be with you. you know? thats why you felt that for kevin. it might just be the feeling of what kevin did that actually kevin himself.
does that make any sense?
YEESSSS!!! omg...I THINK THATS IT!!!!!!!......but I'd better make sure...somehow....
the part you take is the hard you risk
yeah good luck
ok thanks commet on what u thank